I love him so much. I wish he would take me back. I would do anything...

I try so hard to be tough--to be strong when he comes by to drop of my stuff, or when we talk on the phone to decide how to cancel accounts we held together...
But I'm broken inside.
I cry every day and every night.
I miss him so bad.
I don't understand why he doesn't love me anymore.
I've never been so sad.
I don't know how to go on.
I love him so much. I want to be good enough for him.
Even with his faults, I still accepted him--wholeheartedly.
I still would.....

I want to call him and tell him that I love him--but what kills me is knowing, without a doubt, that he wouldn't answer the phone because it's ME calling.
I want to apologize for being snappish and short with him, the last time we saw eachother.
I was just trying so hard to mask the pain at seeing him happy without me in his life.