I Just.......

sent him a text saying "I miss you."
want him to love me.
want things to go back to the way they were.
want him to remember all the things he used to say to me.
want him to keep the promises he made.
want him to stop doing this.
need a hug.
need someone to talk to. (once everybody that I talk to heard that I got dumped, they stopped talking to me)
wish I had someone to love me.
wish I believed in hope and love, still.
don't want to be lonely.

want to die.

I Love You The Mostest And I Win.

I wear socks to bed now.
I used to make sure that my feet were clean and sockless, before we went to bed every night.
I hated wearing socks when we were in bed together, because as I fell asleep, I would rub my bare feet on his hairy legs.
I used to revel in the feel of his legs on my feet.
For me it solidified the fact that we were together--how things should be.

Things are not as they should be.
We both sleep alone now.